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I touch my own skin and feel you there Wonder how it'd be to breathe your air It's catastrophic The things you do by existing I don't want it long term Be my first and last fling? I sense the tension in your words And my verse It grows worse While I go mad with thirst. To drink in your sorrows With the feelings that I borrowed. It's a good thing I'm always numb It's a better thing I never fell in love It's amazing Until it gets me in trouble. So go ahead and touch me So I can smell and breathe you Who said anything about leaving? We're here, just me and you. I -I never believed in this. I-I will never let go of it. So it's terrible The way you move away It's miserable The way I never stay It's heartbreaking I see us buried in rubble. I imagine this to be breaking the bubble I wonder is my song so subtle Would you see yourself in it? Or would you not believe me? Again. I never pride myself at being sane.

Out of the thousand words I misspoke, And a couple hearts it broke, I could fill up the pages of a novel Where does it end and who picks up the shovel? My hands and eyes are growing sore. I just don't like that anymore. There's no going back to before. Why should it matter anymore? From the ten and twenty conflicts, I learned so many new tricks, To weave some better words. But they'll never be heard. For there are so many waves on the shore I just don't like that anymore. This emptiness makes it more Hard to be okay anymore. With every empty silence And little thoughts of violence I draw an unfair portrait The lines are never drawn straight. There's a lock now on every door I just don't like that anymore. And the misery in my core, It won't go away anymore. Now here's a song that I wrote But I don't like it anymore And there are words I can't control But I don't fight them anymore.

For all your love and kind words That I never could reciprocate All I give Is five songs and heartache Two weirdass poems, With ink bleeding on my skin You gave me all of yourself I couldn't even let you in For all you gave, I took and took Yet when it's your soul at stake I drink And I give you five songs and heartache The shades of my pencil Draw things in abstract So when you look at the canvas It ain't your face that looks back The person you believe in Exists but I'm not in state To ever love So take my songs and heartache. When I dream while awake These feelings hit me I never told you about them Because they don't belong to me And all the words that I wrote Made me tired and now it's late So before i forget I write the final song with more heartache

My name is No I'm insecure And I've been walking,  I've been crying on the road. I walk so slow Hard to let go So I've been holding, I've been carrying all my load. I was so sure. Won't hurt no more. But I've been thinking, I've been drinking my sorrow. And I won't behold Everything you throw So I will punch and I will fight you all alone. Not gonna show The scars endured But I've been learning, I've been healing more and more. Nah. Just gonna go Down the dark hole So I'll be rotten and forgotten to the bone.  Join me on   |  Facebook  |   Tumblr |  Instagram

I saw you walking around without a ride I stopped and talked and I casually said hi What would've happened if I had just drove by But couldn't forget I couldn't let go of that Mona Lisa smile An aesthetic motion, the look beneath your eyes But you shrugged and walked away without a try And that is how we'll make it, I know We are meant to be this, I know. So let me take away, all the things you hide. Let me walk with you in the dark goodbye. And hold you close even when you cry And I'll always treasure your Mona Lisa smile No matter what  I  wouldn't let go I'll fight the big fight, you won't be alone.  Join me on   |  Facebook  |   Tumblr |  Instagram

One drop of whiskey A shot of misery Makes me shout  Loud I never parted with the crowd But you found Me out.  To hell with me And my story It's unknown So, Of all the people  I don't deal with Why'd You become My home? Never say never again When I tell u to tell Me my own name Never feed my broken vanities I'm outspoken but got Stolen sanities. It's Alllright It's ohkaaaaay It's just fine We don't care Till we die We'll just say Never say never again Oh I'll never say never again You never tell me when it'll end So I'll never say 'Never again.' Double shot of vodka Back of my car We'll be done Soon Ain't it fun When we do it Like this? To hell with what they say It's forgotten Why Of all the people That I've been with You never see me as rotten. Break me till you make me again I don't know what I know About this wonderful game Never steal my unspoken thoughts

If I don't tell you I love you After every fight If I don't sleep next to you Every Single night If my mouth doesn't make the words or the sounds and shapes How would you behave? If I told you it's my skin That screams our your name Is never an actual word Just a familiar sound I think I have heard It in my head quite loud If I don't tell you I love you Every second of every day But I show it to you Whenever I can't say Would you let me love Every single part of you? Even the broken, the numb one Will you let me through? If I tell you I love you At times when we are apart Would you still hold and cherish The crumpled mess that is my heart?